Darkness

Like an anchor dragging me down spinning me out of control, darkness enveloping me pulling further and further into deep dark blissful horror, full of deep blue’s, callous sapphires, dark and unknowing.

Like gunshots, the pounding on my door rang in my head with increased intensity. I rolled over, pulling the covers with me sliding across the floor, pulling myself up I pulled the door open collapsing on the floor again, not bothering to look up and see who had bothered to wake me at such an early hour.

The night before flashing across my closed eye lids like an old movie. The images flickered burning at the edges with the horror of the night before.

A handful of pills here to wash the pain away, a shot of vodka here to rinse away the memories, a flood of white, brilliant nothingness showering my veins, throwing me into all-knowing happiness, at least for the night.

Strobe lights before my eyes, music pounding in my head the white brilliance flooding my veins blurring the edges of life.

The music fading sirens filling my head, I don’t remember this, but I let the flow of nothingness guide me away. My chest pounding, from the outside in?

                Black.

~TheGirlOnTheHill~

Cover Of Night

Taking comfort in your closeness, I basked in the beauty of the stars, the silent black night holding more beauty for me now, than I can remember it ever holding. The silent laughter coming from the bonfire seemed distant, however the crackling and popping from the fire, was soothing to my mind. A gentle breeze blew over us, your cologne smothering me, not enough to make me distance myself, however just enough to make me wish you would scoot that fraction of an inch between us closer, as if I wasn’t wishing it before. You suddenly twisted on the hard bumped surface of the trucks bed, brushing your arm against mine. My heart fluttered, my breath caught in my throat, your head turned towards mine gently whispering sorry into my ear.

 “Don’t be” I whispered back, a gentle smile blew across your face. I returned the smile with one of my own, making your eyes glint with something, couldn’t be lust, sure looked like it though. As I twisted a little to my side, I brushed my arm against yours, are faces so close, you caught me, as my breath caught in my throat again. At first it was one finger gently caressing my hand, never looking away you interlocked fingers. You slowly looked back up towards the twinkling stars, giving my hand a gently knowing squeeze. We lay there together for the rest of the night, taking comfort in each other’s presence. When the morning light danced over my eyes, stirring me awake I rolled over to find you gone, and your spot filled by Alex.

~TheGirlOnTheHill~